Blanched-Freudian, The Transgenda [Part 2 of 3] (TheAGPrick)

 Getting Lectured By A Prick

Good evening. I tend to go off on tangents quite easily, so I'm just going to jump right into it. Male Transsexualism is a "Gender Identity Disorder". As many readers are already aware, the DSM changed "Gender Identity Disorder" to "Gender Dysphoria" in order to avoid the stigma associated with the word "disorder". Presently, mainstream gender ideology claims that being transgender is not a disorder or mental illness, and to claim that it is a mental disorder/illness is "transphobic", which doesn't make sense, because "transphobia" is defined as "hatred or disgust towards transgender people", and it is not my intention to be hateful when claiming that being transgender is a Gender Identity Disorder. The academic, scientific and medical communities continue to claim that being transgender is a "naturally occurring" phenomenon, and by perpetuating this claim, they are holding back society from actually understanding what being transgender means.

Fortunately, I have this space to try and sort this whole "being trans" thing out, and for that I am most grateful.

Being trans - or transsexualism - cannot be natural, or genetic, or have a biological cause, because "gender" is not part of our biology, or genetic makeup. I'm not sure if it is still okay to declare the following, but it used to be accepted that "gender is a social construct", which would suggest that gender is something that happens after a child is born. This is true, we are socialized into gender as infants, and it is the belief of many researchers that a person's core gender identity is established by the end of the third year. What this means is that we, as infants, are socialized by our parents and others, as they treat us in a way that is based on our biological sex. As we grow older and our brain develops, we establish our "core gender identity", which is essentially our understanding of ourselves as a man, or a woman, or whatever our biological sex might be.

Now then... male transsexualism is a Gender Identity Disorder, where one of two possibilities have occurred: either something has interfered with the establishment of a core gender identity, or a core gender identity has been established, but something has interfered with the way in which one relates to the "gender roles" that are assigned to the male gender identity. The former possibility has been labeled as the "primary transsexual", while the latter possibility has been labeled as the "secondary transsexual". What I am proposing to all of you, is that it is very helpful to understand whether or not one is a primary or secondary transsexual. Keep in mind that gender related issues like AGP can occur in both primary ts and secondary ts. Conditions such as "AGP" and "Gender Dysphoria" are what I would consider to be either "symptoms of" or "reactions to" Gender Identity Disorder. My hope is that this post will help readers to have a greater appreciation for why it is important to view male transsexualism as a "Gender Identity Disorder", as it was viewed in the past, and why we have been steadily heading in the wrong direction in academic research of transsexualism for several years now.

What does it mean to have an "Identity Disorder"? To answer that query I will briefly discuss "Dissociative Identity Disorder" (formerly called "Multiple Personality Disorder"). Some therapists don't believe DID is a real condition, but these therapists have simply never encountered it. DID is a real condition, and I know not everyone is interested in learning "hidden history" (and many will automatically dismiss it entirely as "crazy conspiracy theories"), but the C.I.A. became experts in creating the conditions that cause one to have DID. After WWII, the U.S. government brought Josef Mengele, known as "The Angel of Death", back to the states in order to assist with the C.I.A.'s "MK Ultra" mind control program. I know that the official story is that Mengele died in Brazil, but that simply is not the truth, and it isn't hard to find that out. He did spend time in Brazil after the war, because there is an area in Brazil known for producing more sets of identical twins than anywhere else in the world, and Mengele very much enjoyed experiments involving twins.

Getting to the point, Mengele helped develop the MK Ultra program, and this program is analogous to "Satanic Ritual Abuse". One aspect of the program was (is) inducing DID in a newborn infant. The method for doing so was for a caretaker to shower the newborn infant with nothing but love and affection for the first 180 days of its life (it may have only been the first 80 days, but I do not care to look into it at the moment). Then, on the 181st day, the caretaker would come into the room with the infant, and like a complete 180 degree rotation, the caretaker would be awful and mean and vile to the infant. For the infant's mind, the experience of a loving caretaker suddenly changing into an awful caretaker is simply too much too handle - so much so, that it would "split" the child's identity in half. At this point, the child's innocent "core" identity is hidden, and the split off part takes over as the child's personality. From there, the abuser is able to create more splits in the child's personality. The initial half that split off of the core identity continues to be split, while the original core identity remains intact. These splits in the personality of someone with DID are called "alters", as in "alter identity", and they all work to protect the core identity. In DID, the alters are often unaware of each other, or one might be aware of other alters, if that is part of that alters role in protecting the core identity.

Okay, I imagine that several readers are scratching their heads right now - the purpose of that lesson was to develop an understanding of identity disorder. DID is an extreme example of an identity disorder, but as you can see it is caused by severe childhood trauma. This, along with other evidences, leads me to believe that childhood trauma is the causal factor of male transsexualism. Obviously, not nearly as severe as the trauma outlined in the previous paragraph. Ethel Spector Person and Lionel Ovesey (whose essays on male transsexualism I would highly recommend to this group) believed that the source of this trauma, in both the primary ts and secondary ts, was a phenomenon known in the psychological community as "The Primary Defense" or "The Fantasy Bond". This is actually a generally accepted idea in the psychological community (outside of the realm of transsexualism) known as "Separation Theory". The idea is that a point comes when the infant first understands that their mother has left the room (believed to be around six months old), and when this happens and the mother leaves the infants sight, the infant might believe that their mother is gone forever, or they simply don't know if she is ever coming back, and this is the basis for "infant separation anxiety". The infant responds to this anxiety with the "primary defense" aka "fantasy bond" in which the infant imagines that they are permanently connected to their mother, or that they are their mother.

The psychological community generally agrees that there are two specific times that an infant is affected by Separation Anxiety. The first time is between 6 - 9 months of age, and again when the child is toddler aged (between 3 -4 years old). I want to make it clear that this process is considered to be normal and healthy, generally, and that separation anxiety is something almost all children experience, and the Fantasy Bond is also very common and the majority of children may experience this. What Person and Ovesey are suggesting, is that the fantasy of being connected to the mother, has a negative impact on the child's ability to establish a core gender identity. They go into detail about the type of mother that will cause her son to have this experience, however, and if anything this makes their argument much more compelling than my presentation of it here. Being that there are two distinct periods where a child experiences separation anxiety from their mother, followed by the creation of the fantasy bond, Person and Ovesey determined that the period in which the infant has this experience will determine if they are primary ts or secondary ts - obviously primary being those who have the earlier experience, which interferes with establishing a male gender identity, while secondary has the later experience, after they have established a male core gender identity.

I personally think that Person and Ovesey's theory is very interesting and I think it makes a lot of sense - that is - I believe it makes sense in the case of a primary ts; the reason being that whatever experience occurs that impacts the ability to establish a core gender identity must occur early in life, in the first three years. The fantasy bond, or the desire to be one with the mother, is so strong in the primary ts that it interferes with establishing a male core gender identity, and this means that the primary ts does not establish any core gender identity, and they grow up having an ambiguous gender identity. They do not have a female core gender identity because they are not socialized as females; however, the fantasy bond with their mother kickstarts the desire to be female from very early on, which is why Gender Dysphoria is present from an early age for the primary ts. I'm not so sure about applying Person's theory to the secondary ts; however, although it may very be a possibility. MEF theory (male emasculation fetishism) which I'm not sure has even been considered in academia, is a very promising explanation for secondary ts, and also AGP. Earlier I mentioned that a primary ts can also have AGP, and the reason for this is experiencing "Childhood Emasculation Trauma". There are several of us with AGP that can easily recall the specific emasculation trauma that triggered our AGP, like myself, who was called a girl and beaten up every single day at recess for the first two years at public school. Others like me, who typically support the MEF theory, are almost always masochists, meaning that our own humiliation is what turns us on the most, and when that is mixed with AGP... well, you then get a large subgroup of male transsexuals and transvestites.

There are other very promising explanations as to what causes Gender Identity Disorder in males. Users of this forum have described feeling jealous of their sisters when they were young, due to the different ways they were treated, and I think this is an explanation for some. Others describe emasculating childhood experiences that were enjoyable rather than traumatic. I believe that trauma does not necessarily have to be a negative experience, it is simply an emotional experience that is beyond what the child's underdeveloped mind can handle. I also believe that AGP can be triggered by things we viewed in the media as children - just as the "Blueberry Girl" fetish discussed on this forum. In fact, in our present day culture, I am almost convinced that male transsexualism has become somewhat of a "social contagion", with more and more individuals learning about trans women, or finding sissy porn online, that it has now become part of the "Mimetic Desire". If you are unfamiliar with mimetics, it is a very interesting theory/philosophy developed recently - by some French dude - which proposes that people learn things by copying other people. The theory is more complicated than that, as it goes on to explain that when ideas, or social phenomena, begin their slow death, people search for scapegoats to blame. Before I go off on too much of a tangent - I'm saying that it almost seems as though teenage boys these days want to be AGP. I've had people ask me on my other account (where I post slutty pics of myself as a sissy) - younger people, no less, if I can help them become a "sissy" like I am. Well, I ask them a few questions, and it turns out they have never crossdressed, own no panties or chastity cages or buttplugs and do not feel gay or trans; they simply want to be "a sissy slut who takes real men's cocks". What is causing this? Since when do guys who aren't sissies wish to become sissies?!? But I digress...

People love to say that someone who is undergoing a MtF gender transition is "finally living as her true self" - which I find to be a rather dangerous way of thinking about it. There are several ways one can find out whether or not they have established a core male gender identity. There are many questions that can - and should - be asked by gender therapists, to anyone seeking a medical transition, but for some fucking reason this is all completely disregarded as... well, "bullshit". The understanding of whether one is a primary or secondary transsexual is important for this reason: a primary ts should/needs to undergo medical transition, whereas a secondary ts is able to find alternatives, if they wish. (Note: there is nothing wrong with a secondary ts wanting to transition, and nothing saying that it won't be the best option, but it is usually the best option for a primary ts, with a much smaller likelihood of regret etc.). When a secondary ts transitions, they are not really living as "their true selves". What is happening is closer to letting a fragmented part of one's identity take over as the core identity; their female persona is not the true self, but rather a persona which developed from a traumatic experience. Of course, none of this is explained in tis manner to anyone seeking a medical transition, because I am a TERF, and everything I've written today is transphobic.

One needs to look no further than the DSM criteria for "Gender Dysphoria" to see the language "primary" and "secondary" being used. "The intense desire to have the primary or secondary sex features of the opposite gender" or "the intense desire to do away with the primary or secondary sex feature of the assigned gender" This wording is important, because there is a difference between the primary and secondary sex features. Knowing that I am a secondary ts, I can explain why: I desire to have the secondary sex features of the opposite gender - meaning, I wish to shave all my body hair, I wish to wear makeup and jewelry and slutty outfits with long hair. I wish to wear a top with a bra underneath that is either stuffed or has breast forms, but I do not desire to actually have tits. I do not desire to have a vagina. I only desire the secondary sex features. Obviously, there are people who desire a mix of primary and secondary features, but there is another symptom of Gender Dysphoria listed in the DSM that is even more telling: "a powerful assurance of having the characteristic feelings and responses of the other gender". This is the belief that one is a woman, and this is a sign that one is a primary ts. We see over and over on this forum users that say "I am ok with being a man" which is a sign of being a secondary ts! (Is this at all exciting, or is everybody bored and thinking "so fucking what?")

Something I see users saying often on this forum is that they are jealous of women; that they feel envy when they see a pretty girl out and about. I ask those who feel this way: "Why?" Why are you jealous of women? Think of all they have to put up with - being on a cycle guided by the moon where they bleed and cramp for seven days, or being much more emotionally unstable than men are, or being weaker and more stupid -OH there it is! Just kidding! Seriously though, why be jealous of women? Why not instead respect women, or worship women for the sexual goddesses that they are? Have you ever been around a pregnant woman? Because I just spent the last year with my pregnant girlfriend, and I for one do not feel jealous for what they have to go through at all. Being pregnant is very hard, and I respect women for doing it. Oh, and if you feel jealous of a woman's womb, and you dream of one day having a daughter of your own, these are signs of being a primary ts. Anatomic AGP can be better explained as signs of being a primary ts... and one must have the same understanding of anatomic AGP that I am referring to. Some people say that the way I must have a stuffed bra on is anatomic AGP, but I disagree, for this is, again, a secondary sex feature! Anatomic AGP is wanting the actual parts, because one is convinced that they should be a female!

We are in a community of predominantly secondary ts, although there are some primary ts here as well. Remember that a primary ts never established a male core gender identity, which is why transition is typically inevitable for them. A secondary ts experienced trauma that affected their gender identity after the male core gender identity was established, which means that their issues are more closely associated with gender roles. Instead of a desire for a female core gender identity, the desire is to take on female gender roles. If you examine AGP, you will find that it is mostly concerned with female gender roles, particularly in the bedroom. This is why I have been referring to AGP as a "coping mechanism" which develops as a reaction to, or symptom of, Gender Identity Disorder. In other words, AGP and the erotic fantasies involved with AGP, is the way that we cope with our fractured gender identity. For an HSTS, they often are using the act of homosexual intercourse as a coping mechanism; they are a gay bottom which represent the female gender role, and the penis going into their asshole is how they cope with not having a vagina. When you begin to understand this, you can understand why AGP is not associated with sexual orientation, but rather gender identity. The HSTS can be AGP as a way to cope with their gender identity, and the AGP can engage in homosexual intercourse as a way to cope with their gender identity. AGP has nothing to do with sexual orientation; AGP is better described as sexual disorientation, which is a neat term relating to the way childhood trauma can effect one's sexual orientation.

Something I see all the time is "once I started transitioning the AGP basically went away". This makes perfect sense, because they have made "transitioning" their new coping mechanism for their identity disorder, so it has replaced AGP. As I close out this lecture, I want to make sure that all the secondary ts who are still reading this understand that transitioning is nothing more than a replacement coping mechanism for their AGP. There is nothing wrong with this, but just understand that by transitioning, you most likely will start to date men instead of women. This is what I meant earlier, when I said transitioning is akin to letting a fractured part of your identity take over completely, because now that you are transitioning, your entire sexual orientation is going to change too. Your female persona has essentially hijacked your actual "true self" that you were living as your entire life up to that point, and is now creating an entirely "pseudo-sexual" experience for you. This will not be an issue for many AGPs, who feel rather asexual (and might be primary ts), but for those readers that wish to have girlfriends, children, and the life of a man, here is my advice: stop feeling jealousy towards women and instead feel a sense of awe and wonderment of women. Start worshipping women for the sexual goddesses that they are, and take on a mentality of female supremacy. Especially in the bedroom - the bedroom is where you should cope with your Gender Identity Disorder, because it is here that I believe you may be able to achieve a better result than transitioning would have ever gotten you, because as you worship your girlfriend sexually, and begin to excel at pleasing her sexually, and begin to submit to her automatically, you can work your way towards a life locked in a chastity cage, were you can worship your girlfriend and soon be feminized yourself, as a poor representation of the fairer, superior sex.

I don't think the sex that people think to be natural is actually natural - you know, wat evolution theory would have us believe: the male dominant and sticking it in the female for upwards of thirty seconds in order to procreate. No, I believe that the female's anatomy down there is far to complex for this to be "the natural way". The natural way is for the woman to be dominant in the bedroom, and the man to be her sexual slave that pleases her and provides her with multiple orgasms, while he is completely feminized, and made into a complete bitch by his lady. I'm hoping that mine will keep me in diapers as a baby girl... that's hot to me.

Well, goodnight.

TL;DR

• Male transsexualism is a Gender Identity Disorder, and AGP and Gender Dysphoria are symptoms of this Gender Identity Disorder

• There are two subtypes of male transsexuals: primary and secondary. Primary does not have a core male gender identity established, while secondary does have an established male core gender identity.

• Gender Identity Disorder is caused by early childhood trauma, and the age of the child at the time of trauma will determine if they are primary ts or secondary ts.

• Primary ts desire to actually be a woman, while secondary ts can rely on performing female gender roles in order to cope with their identity disorder.

• Primary ts typically transitions successfully, because they cannot find other ways to cope with their Gender Identity Disorder. Secondary ts is able to successfully transition as well, but should be made aware of other, potentially better, options.

• I am a stupid fuck-fuck prick-boy with no degree, and my opinions should be disregarded by all immediately.

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