The Pros and Cons of Transitioning (TheAGPrick)
The Pros and Cons of Transitioning
Hello! The following commentary is composed of my own personal opinions on undergoing medical transition. I am posting it with the hope that it might help some of the younger AGP males amongst us, that are struggling internally trying to decide if undergoing medical transition is the right decision for them. Everybody has their own unique situation, and AGP falls on a spectrum with varying levels of intensity and varying desires. I believe that AGP is most likely a developmental disorder that can occur for a number of reasons. I think it is helpful to understand where your AGP stems from, and whether or not you fall under the MEF (male emasculation fetishism) umbrella, as I think it is somewhat easier for those with MEF (myself included) to avoid transitioning.
I don't mind sharing my opinion of the so-called "experts" in the medical and psychological fields - they are whack. Just like every other trans related subreddit that denies and silences any mention of AGP, all the experts will affirm that you are trans. This is what they are supposed to do; this is their protocol - and this should be a major red flag. What young men with AGP really need is honest discussion, and honest answers to their questions. Questions like this: why do you suppose the medical experts are so quick to affirm people's transgender feelings, and get the process of HRT and surgery underway ASAP?
Why does the pharmaceutical industry do anything? (Cha-Ching)
Which reminds me... please do not get the COVID-19 vaccine if you can avoid it.
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If that last line set you off into having a strong emotional reaction, and you feel the need to lecture me about "understanding science" or "being selfish" then we are probably not going to get along very well. That sentence is a line of defense, to protect people like me from people like you, and by "people like you" I mean this: people who put all their faith into external sources. People who look to authority figures and these so-called "experts" like Dr. "AIDS Epidemic" Fauci for the answers, and are somehow blind to the massive brainwashing and deception that is taking place all over the world currently. Individuals need to trust in themselves, and look within to find the answers - the exact thing that the ruling class has been discouraging us from doing. The amount of psychological manipulation taking place at a subconscious level is staggering, and if you can't see past this wall of tolerance that we have been indoctrinated with, you will not see all the different agendas taking place right now that serve the purpose of pushing society to its breaking point. I'll just say it - yes, there is some sort of "transgender agenda" taking place. I hope people understand that I can hold that point of view and not be transphobic at the same time. I personally believe that encouraging small children to wear clothes of the opposite gender will be the reason for a lot of future cases of AGP. We have an ongoing discussion on r/askAGP about emasculating childhood experiences, such as being put into a dress, being very common amongst the AGP population - regardless of the emasculating experience being a fond memory, or a traumatic one.
CON #1: A LIFELONG ATTACHMENT TO BIG PHARMA
The bottom line: medical "experts" are not always working for your best interests, and I don't blame them personally, because most are completely unaware of how indoctrinated they became in medical school. There is a reason the pharmaceutical companies donate millions of dollars to universities, and the reality of universities is that they teach you how to not think critically. This is why every expert opinion is the same - they are the opinions of the establishment, being parroted by people who underwent eight years at prestigious brainwashing camps. I suggest that anybody thinking of undergoing medical transition takes a long, hard look at themself in the mirror. You need to decide if you will be happy with the way your body will look when it is no longer the body of a man, but a woman's body, because there is only so much that HRT can do; masculine skeletal features such as being taller than average with long, lanky arms and giant hands and feet will not transition well to a new, female identity. Do not get the wrong idea - this does not mean you should transition before you finish puberty; it seems like a lot of guys make the decision to transition before they spend a long time being fully feminized and analyzing how they feel. If you can not come close to passing after fully feminizing yourself - wearing a pretty dress, good makeup application, body fully shaven with heels and a wig - chances are you are not going to pass - ever. Medically transitioning costs a lot of money, and should be taken very seriously, as it also carries some concerning health risks. I also suggest browsing r/detrans and reading some of the experiences of the detrans males on there.
CON #2: ESTROGEN ALLEVIATES AUTOGYNEPHILIA
Many would see this as a pro rather than a con. I speculate that most AGP males (51% or more, myself included) do not experience any significant gender dysphoria; AGPs that are dysphoric might benefit more from taking estrogen. How can so many trans women claim that AGP is pseudoscience when it is so common to lose interest in transition after starting HRT? Male testosterone drives the AGP, but instead of taking estrogen to alleviate my autogynephilic urges, I find that it is much more enjoyable to act out on my autogynephilic urges instead; I do this by feminizing myself. The process of shaving off all my body hair, applying makeup and putting on a cute outfit is one of my all-time favorite activities - much more entertaining than going to a doctor on a regular basis. Knowing that I am a perfectionist, I feel like undergoing medical transition with HRT would make me hyper focused on my progress. I don't believe I would get the "reverse-dysphoria" that non-AGP trans women like to claim an AGP will experience; I feel like I would give myself gender dysphoria over how masculine I would still be, whereas feminizing occasionally as a hobby does not cause me any distress or dysphoria.
CON #3: THE PROCESS OF FEMINIZATION LOSING IT'S MAGIC
As a human being, I have experience an entire range of emotions, and I have to deal with a lot of shit. I want to keep my female persona out of all the bullshit I have to deal with in my life, and I would rather approach difficult situations as a man, simply because I have always been a man. Feminizing myself is a great escape from the pressure and struggle of everyday life, and I would rather keep my self-feminization as an activity I only indulge in occasionally. I do not want to have to put on makeup just to go out, and I don't want to be a woman 24/7. Obviously, plenty of AGPs do wish to live as woman 24/7, but personally I like to keep my AGP as my own, personal experience, that I only share with select individuals and online communities, such as this one. I am getting older, and I am experiencing my AGP change, which is something I have read about happening. The sexual gratification from crossdressing has become a secondary reason, and the main reason that I crossdress has become the comfort and happiness associated with becoming my feminine persona. I suppose this is the phenomenon known as "gender euphoria", as that is a great word to describe how I feel when I feminize: euphoric. I disagree that gender euphoria is the same as gender dysphoria, however, because I am happy with my male gender in terms of my social life and the way I present myself to others. I am in a position where I could feminize myself every night if I so desired, but I actually don't feel the need to do so, and most nights the thought of fully feminizing myself just seems like entirely too much of an effort to undertake. I would get frustrated with all the maintenance of living as a woman would require.
CON #4: I AM MOSTLY GYNEPHILIC, AND HARDLY ANDROPHILIC
This is a big reason, possibly the most important one of all - I am a heterosexual man, and I am into heterosexual women. Heterosexual women are into me as well - homosexual women do not typically care for me, and I somehow don't think this is something that would change if I were to transition. I experience meta-attraction towards men and I am a pseudobisexual on par with the average AGP - I even thought I was gay in my twenties and spent four years in a relationship with a man, and back then I was still too shy and scared to act on my feminine desires, so I was a man, in a relationship with a man. About six ,months after we broke up, I did go to him to see if I could stay with him and fully feminize myself for the first time. He was more than happy to accomodate me, and I had the pleasure of getting banged like a chick my first time. My life experience is why I know that I do not feel the same romantic attachment to a man that I do to a woman. I am a heterosexual man, and I should be with a woman - because that is my preference. I need to be with a woman that I can be myself with, and I need a woman that loves me for who I am - all of me, including my female persona. I need a woman that will participate in my feminization and sexual fantasies with me, and it is my belief that no AGP should settle for anything less.
CON # 5: I DO NOT WISH TO START OVER AND ESTABLISH A NEW IDENTITY
The mainstream trans subreddits would read this article and say "Of course he shouldn't transition - being trans is not a sexual thing!" This is not true, and I believe that I could transition successfully if I desired to. If I was fed up with my life and wanted to start over then I would transition. If I was an incel with no friends and lived by myself and generally felt depressed going to a job I didn't really care about, then I would transition, and I would start seeking out men sexually. I am happy with the life I have, however, and I prefer to keep AGP an intimate part of it that only my girlfriend has the pleasure of experiencing in person. As I have gotten older, I have become a lot more comfortable with my AGP, and aside from my family, I don't really give a shit who knows about my crossdressing, and I enjoy showing people my pictures. I don't mind the narcissism that accompanies my AGP, and that is because I never take pictures of myself as a guy - I could give a shit about how I look as a guy. I don't enjoy shopping for clothes as a guy, and I don't care about what I wear. To go back to my crazy conspiracy shit about "the transgender agenda" - why do you suppose there seems to be an effort from the mainstream media to further emasculate men? Why do you think they promote men being feminine, soft, weak-ass pussies? I think about what might happen if shit ever got real, like society collapsing - or civil war, and I know that I want to remain the man which I was born as, if there ever comes a time when the people need to fight the power.
Now let's look at some of the pros of transitioning:
PRO #1 .....
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This should be a whole new post for another time, but I'd like to briefly touch on a few of the ways that I live happy and comfortably as a man with AGP. First of all, I love having AGP, and I consider my gender to be a sissy. I prefer being a sissy because I am a masochist, and I desire to be placed on a lower level than male and female. It seems to me that the best way to live successfully with AGP is to be comfortable with AGP being a part of who you are, and expressing your desires with your significant other. I believe that the most masculine trait is being comfortable with yourself, and being okay with who you are. This is why I believe it is imperative for AGP men to be the submissive partner in their relationships with women. Many women like their men to be submissive - in fact many women prefer it and they just don't know it yet, thanks to society's shitty, rigid gender roles. I can be a man for my woman in almost every way; I am her protector, I am strong, I can support her and take care of her - and I am masculine. In the privacy of our bedroom, she is in control, and she loves having that control. She decides when I get to orgasm, and she gets as many orgasms as she can possibly handle. I enjoy worshipping my girlfriend sexually, and I enjoy her being dominant. My girlfriend was understandably freaked out and worried after the first time I fully feminized in front of her, and she had a lot of questions. I could tell she was not into it - after all, she is a herterosexual woman - why should she be into it? A couple years later, however, she is very into my autogynephilic tendencies, and she enjoys the power she feels when she locks me in chastity and pegs me. I think this is what many AGPs should aspire towards, a relationship where they can enjoy being feminine with a female partner that will participate with them. As I mentioned, I should devote a whole post to this sometime, but the basic idea is that you need to perform sexually in such a way where she can relate your submissiveness, and AGP, directly to her orgasmic pleasure and satisfaction. I do not care to transition at this time because I have this situation currently. Note: I didn't even attempt to feminize myself until I was 29 years old, up until that point I had only worn panties on occasion. My AGP was very hard for me to come to terms with, and for years I felt extremely pent-up inside. I desired to feminize myself for almost two fucking decades before I finally "manned-up". Please be kind to yourself, and please understand that being a man doesn't mean you are required to do anything, or to be any particular way. Sometimes the solution is finding a middle ground between the man you grew up as, and the woman you desire to become.
I hope this helps at least one person.
Sincerely,
Narcissistic AF
The AGPrick
tl; dr: The five reasons why I don't transition are:
You become a lifelong medical patient
HRT will make you lose your libido, and stop caring about being a girl
I like my self-feminization to be a special treat, like an LSD trip
I am into pussy
I am basically cis, I don't feel my gender in day-to-day life
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